fuck it sucks so much that grandpa’s gone

it keeps randomly slapping me in the feels

every time i remember it, which is often

you don’t realize how deeply woven into your life your closest family members are until they’re gone

one thing i keep feeling is this sense that there’s just such a rich trove of experiences i had with him

like, i keep remembering all these little things i never really thought about

and getting this sense of awe at his ubiquity in my life’s tapestry

fuck, i miss him