i’ve never really used this to discuss events

it’s always been more about feelings

and things abstracted from daily life

or at least the minutiae of it

sometimes i’ll write about daily life

insofar as there is some common theme

that is affecting me regularly

like relationship woes

but that’s still about the feeling

that is pervading my days

and not the specificities of

the days themselves

i do very much write about experience

this whole thing is a catalogue of it

but it’s facets of experience that

are different than “here is a

recollection of things

that happened”

i write all of this because this blog has taken many forms over the years as i’ve grown older, improved my skills, and developed my style. i’ve just been thinking that i might post less now than in the past based on how i’ve come to prefer to write things.

in the past, i was perhaps more spontaneous and unguarded in my posts. that’s because i worried less about legacy, knew less about what types of writing are most effective based on my intentions for a post, and was still shaping the character of the blog itself.

so now i wonder…. have i become so locked in to the character of this blog that i prevent myself from creating meaningful writing?